Being able to leave home to pursue a degree would be the pinnacle moment of anyone’s life, especially if it’s abroad. (Isn’t it very Malaysian? Any place out of Malaysia is good!)
When I received the opportunity to study in the UK, I felt exactly what most of my peers would, prior to leaving home – FREEDOM! The sense of liberation was so overwhelming that I could not wait to explore my newfound freedom.
I was studying in this town in the southeast of England, called Reading – doing a degree in Accounting and Finance at the University of Reading. I barely felt homesick and had the time of my life. Just like that, time flew by quicker than I wanted for me to properly settle down in my studies.
Facing up to freedom
I lived through the routine of classes and made a bunch of friends, but it was slowly creeping up on me that Accounting and Finance was not a good fit for me. I suddenly found myself directionless – I was lost. I didn’t know why I was doing the course nor did I know who I was as a person, and that hit me hard.
It was one of the most dreaded phases of my life when I felt like I could not live up to the societal construct of always needing to know what you want to pursue in life.